The dilemma of the dreamer who woke up to the real world

There are people that don't dream at all, 
there are people that dream, wake up, get over it and live their lives,
then there are people that dream but can't remember their dreams once they wake up
and then there are the dreamers that never actually quite wake up.

Arriving at a new place and quickly noticing you don’t belong there can be grueling and scary, especially if you’ve already been looking forward living in this place for a while.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I still love the city of my university. It’s a wonderful place, full of wonderful people and potential adventures awaiting but I didn’t expect being told right after arrival that they were going to kick me out of my temporary home after only two nights which didn’t exactly leave me a lot of time and room to still look for something permanent to live. Yet, I still decided to give it a try and spend hours over hours looking through the websites of estate agencies and accommodations for rent – unfortunately though, all, literally ALL, of the results I had gotten were either way too far, unfurnished, didn’t have any bills included or totally out of my budget.
So I sat back reflecting for a while and came to the conclusion that it eventually was going to be best to just go on a gap year for now, especially since this study year was initially thought of as a time filler until I could apply to another university for an entirely different course that I had only missed the deadline for. I thought to myself:  “Of what avail is this one year insight into a BA in business going to be to me if I am going to be homeless (because, yes, I can afford my tuition fees but, let's be really honest here, I can certainly not afford paying 1000GBP or even more for my accommodation only in addition to that)?!
I’m a spontaneous person, hard to get down, but it did frustrate and hurt me having to scrap the idea of studying this course for a year – especially because rejecting an idea once it has taken a hold of me is not usually something that would ever come to my mind.
It’s not actually frustrating and hurtful because I feel sad since I obviously won’t get the chance to study this course, it’s frustrating and hurtful because this experience has made me feel so weak and immature, not capable of managing my life and getting over any obstacles on my own – simply, not ready for adult life. 
It completely casted the delusional image I have had of myself as the “independent and always secure and extremely emotionally stable 19-year-old” out of the window while the actual me stayed behind staring into the chaotic and stormy ocean aka. "adult life" watching the wind carry it away until it got out of sight.
Let me tell you, when you spend almost your entire lifetime imagining yourself in a certain position, as a certain person at a certain age and then learn that whatever you have imagined yourself to be isn’t the actual you, then that can be extremely challenging and stressful! And that is the exact situation I’m in at the moment. Right now, I’m actually rather frustrated but once that feeling is gone, I suppose all that will be left is going to be fear of the future. What is gonna happen if the very center, the protagonist, of all your plans, concepts and ideas is suddenly gone? That changes everything. It’s like you’ll have to completely redefine yourself.
I felt like an adult, independent and free, after graduating from high school, leaving the protected environment I've studied in to conquer the world (aka. starting university) and all that suddenly vanished and left the scary actual image of myself: an insecure, naive teenager, totally helpless and with no plans of how actual life works.
See, that’s the big issue if you’ve been pampered all your life because at some point people are gonna stop offering their support, being concerned with your problems and taking care of you 24/7 and that’s when the shock, the realization that the real world is not at all the place where you’ve been living so far, hits you and it hits you with an incredibly relentless brutality leaving no room and time for dreams or castles in the air anymore – Now the problem with this is, no room for dreams also means no room for dreamers and no room for dreamers means no room for me. 
So for the coming months, until my actual course at my actual university is going to start it will be my job to “find myself” because, as stupid as this might sound, I’m finally understanding the importance of all this and what people actually mean when they talk about this stuff now!
In a way, I’m even glad I’ve made the experience at this point in time, as there is still time for me to change and find out who and what I actually am. 

I think this is a state most dreamers will find themselves in at some point of their lives, it's scary to suddenly 'wake up', not knowing if or when you'll ever be able to dream again, but although this might a gloomy time, it is certainly not a time to throw in the towel! I'm a firm believer that situations like this are supposed to teach us a lesson, and more importantly, that they, like the entire journey we call 'life', are supposed to be made the best out of. 

My intention is not to scare any of you who are still about to graduate and start university with this post. All I wanted was to simply tell you my story and recent experiences so that you won’t make the same mistake and wake up one day finding yourself in the same quandary that I’m in at the moment. 
So before you start your course/job (or whatever you are going to do after you graduate from high school or college), do some serious self reflection – this might sound ridiculous – but seriously, if you’re not 100% sure of how you are going to manage, live, afford things, arrange your time wisely, etc., think about a way to be 100% sure of all those things. Plan everything in advance, and in addition to that, maybe even develop a plan B just in case so you’ll be prepared if things don’t run as smoothly as you expect them to straight after the motto: "Hope for the best, prepare for the worst."
And then, even in the unlikely case of you getting into a situation similar to mine, always keep in mind: 

xx ♡ Micky

Coordinate: Monolove

Necklace : H&M | Dress : Zara

 This is gonna be my last, belated, summer look for this season featuring gel hair and smokey eyes.
It's funny how you never realize how short your hair is until you gel it all back but I still wouldn't want it to be any longer, especially not for this look. I've been trying to personify my style a little more lately and decided that edgy & elegant was what I'm gonna go for, though, there might still be some looks that are gonna be exceptions to this in the future but let's not waste too much time planning for the future now, we live now, today and tomorrow is really just a mystical land that we humans store 99% of our productivity, motivation and achievement (credits to the quote I once read this in somewhere).
 
Btw. I'm so glad I still got the time to write and publish this post because I'm currently on the airport waiting for boarding to go back to the UK to finally join and experience the, probably most exciting time of our lives, university life! 
And can I just confess that I like airports – Especially the time when you're waiting for boarding because it's so fun for me to just watch all the business people hectically type some last messages and send their last emails before the wi-fi-less-time on board of the plane and to witness all the conversations that are just being started because people finally find someone who speaks their language and it's so nice for me to just sit there and listen while they're exchanging those little stories about their lives. 
The only thing I probably like even more than the time when you wait for boarding at an airport is the time right after check-in and security because you just sort of sit there and wait for your gate to open while all the people that are late for their own flights rush past you and in those moments it somehow feels like time stands still for me.

Anyways, back to topic. I really hope you like this look and I want you to know I'm so grateful to each one of you taking the time to even read my boring blog posts haha!<3

Do you use lookbook? 

What style would you wanna be associated with?

Let me know in the comments below! :)

xx ♡ Micky

Coordinate: Holographic

Dress : Topshop | Sandals : Lamoda | Clutch Bag : River Island | Bracelet : Swarovski

Here's, probably one of my preppiest but also edgy, looks for summer or for the last sunny & warm days of transition, of course featuring a nice jacket or coat if it's colder, but this is really more of an outfit I would wear to a night out. I wore this topshop dress/tunic/filler for my birthday party actually and it was really convenient, I didn't get too hot or cold throughout the whole night. My hair is longer in the pictures thanks to a half wig btw. (I'm really a fan of half wigs so I might write a post on them soon)!
Other than that there's really way too much stuff going on in my life at the moment. Do you know that feeling you get when there's so many things to do that you actually can't even do them all until the deadline so you just kinda resign? Exactly... But I wouldn't be me if I wouldn't somehow manage to do it – I believe nothing is impossible as long as you just stay positive and believe in yourself and it has gotten me quite a distance now so I can't say it was the stupidest thing to believe :)

xx ♡ Micky

The autumn blues and how to fight it

 The smell of rain and soil is in the air, sunsets look like paintings and the colorful leaves turn the world into a real existing impressionism. No doubt, autumn is a festival for our eyes, if only there wasn't this bad weather and the gloomy, short days!

If you live in a region where the seasonal changes are quite big, say Scandinavia or Canada you will most likely have heard of this or even experienced this yourself – autumn depression or "autumn blues", as experts like to call it, can have many symptoms that stress humans physically and mentally with the most common ones being mood swings, tiredness and sluggishness. 

Now to really fully fight or, in the best case, prevent any kind of depression you need to trigger the cause first, right? 

So why do so many people suffer from the autumn blues?

Well, with this kind of depression this has primarily turned out to be the lack of sunshine in our daily lives and the rapid change of it in comparison to the much brighter summer days.
Darkness in combination with bad weather reduce our body's production of serotonin, the 'happy homone' and could even trigger SAV (=seasonal affective disorder) leaving you really feeling even worse. This is also why autumn blues mostly affects people living in areas where this lack of sunshine becomes really obvious with the change of the seasons

Now what can you do against this?  
  
The first measure you can take against the autumn blues is, obviously, daylight: 

• Try to spend as much time outside as possible while the sun is still up, take a walk or go to jog in the park rather than the gym. According to neuroscientists the daylight, even on overcast days, is still 500-1000 times brighter outside than in your home, so this should already have a really positive effect on how you feel. 

• Of course you can also consider traveling to a warm and sunny country like Egypt, for instance, to soak up some sun. 

• However, if you don't have the time to do all this during day time, daylight lamps could be your salvation. These lamps are especially popular in Scandinavia where autumns and winters can be very gloomy, they are very bright and have a similar effect as daylight does. 

 Next to enough exposure to light and exercise, the right diet is also key to keep you feeling happy. Especially in the gloomier seasons you should pay more attention to what you eat because the lack of serotonin might make you crave serotonin-boosting carbs which can quickly make you gain weight if you aren't careful. 

• So instead of the usual pasta, rice & potatoes, try to switch to delicious pumpkin, sweet potatoes and swedes sometimes, these orange vegetables are all great sources of Vitamin C, antioxidants and fibre. 

•  Apples and pears might also help lighten up your mood on the darker days because they contain heart-healthy flavonoids and soluble fiber which helps reduce cholesterol and boosts digestion. 

• Of course you can also treat yourself with a piece of chocolate sometimes since this is known as a 'happy maker' as well. ;)

I wish you all the luck for fighting the depression this season and, honestly, if you do work against it using some of this advice, you should have some pretty good chances to win this fight! 

xx ♡ Micky

Beauty Pills

Mirror, mirror on the wall – who's the fairest of them all?

Striving for perfection and beauty has been a curse to mankind since thousands of years and since it is apparently something so vital that does not seem to fade away anytime soon, beauty industry is always working on new innovations to make us spend even more money on things that, let's be honest, we actually don't need. Us, a society so thirsty for beauty and perfection that some of us would stop at nothing to achieve their ultimate goal because "beauty is power", right?

Now I'm not here to keep on ranting about how ethically wrong all this is and how we're all tricked by industry and media into believing that only one certain look is the ideal.
I'm here to talk about something much less philosophical, beauty pills. My beauty pills to be exact.
Now hang on a minute! They're probably not what you think they are – they are actually just vitamins & minerals, vitamins & minerals that can make you pretty and I'm gonna share with you what vitamins they are. ;)

So here's a list of the stuff my 'beauty pills' contain: 

Pink pills (these pills are especially good for a strong conjunctive tissue): 

• 80mg Vitamin C
• 1mg copper
• 50µg Biotin 
• Pineapple-extract

Bronze pill (this pill is especially good for a vital skin) :

• Vitamin C 
• Zinc
• Vitamin A & E
• Coenzym Q10 
• Hyaluronic acid

White pill (this is a pill especially for vegetarians and vegans):

• 10mg Iron
• 5µg Vitamin B12
• 5µg Vitamin D
• 400mg Calcium
• 5mg zinc
• 100µg Yod
• Vitamins B1, B2 & B6

*I can't mention the name of the companies that I buy them from because I don't like giving plugs on my blog.

So as you can see these pills are loaded with vitamins and minerals! 
I take those vitamin supplements because I simply don't feel like my diet, although it is very healthy, is really providing me with 100% of the vitamins my body needs each day. As a vegetarian I do rely on iron pills anyways so I thought to myself: why not add some other important vitamins that your diet might not provide in the amounts your body needs them?

I hope you enjoyed getting to know more about one of my little "beauty secrets" and if you're interested in buying your own I think now that you know what my 'beauty pills' contain you might be able to find similar vitamin supplements in your local drug store or pharmacy but always make sure you're not allergic to any of the ingredients before taking them! 

xx  ♡ Micky

The Liebster Award

I'm very happy and grateful I've been nominated for the Liebster Award by Alyce 
and Mercedita!
The reason why I'm so happy to have been nominated for this is because I think this is a great opportunity to get to know new blogs and more about the blogs you're already following.

Here's how the award works: 
It's given to bloggers by other bloggers and follows the simple principle of a chain letter. 
To participate you first of all have to post information about the award itself and answer the 11 questions that have been asked to you by the person that tagged you. Then the blogger has to post 11 facts about themselves and nominate 11 further bloggers that will are participating in the Liebster award answering the 11 questions the blogger that mentioned them asks them. 

So let's not longer bother with the details and get this fun thing started! :)


So these are the 11 questions asked to me: 

• If you could have a superpower, what would it be?

I would love to be able to read people's mind, I do believe that it might not always be good news for me to do that but it would be very useful in life - also to make others happy.

• What are your hobbies?

I like reading books, shopping, listening to movies, going to parties and bars and watching those catching TV series on netflix.

• What is your favorite dish to cook at home?

I love doing a Tofu-Teriyaki bowl, admittedly I'm not the best cook but I've perfected the art of the Tofu-Teriyaki bowl to the level of a 3 star japanese cuisine chef lmao

• What food can you not live without?

Nectarines & Swiss Müsli, nectarines are healthy and full of nutrients and Müsli is always just waiting to give you an energy boost for the day. 

• Where is your favorite place to shop?

 I like shopping at zara or selfridges, either online or down town. 

• What is your favorite makeup or fashion brand?

I love Bobbi Brown for make-up & well, Zara for fashion - because it's high quality and not too expensive. 

• Describe your style.

Edgy & eccentric, I always look a little different. 

• What is your favorite Disney film?

My favorite is the Lion King by far, I grew up watching this a million times, I know the title song by heart and still cry when Mufasa dies..

• Name 5 things that you can't leave the house without.

Phone, wallet, keys, a good book in case I get bored & my favorite lipstick.

• Name your current favorite song.

My all time favorite is Smooth by Santana. 
I like old music, don't ask... 

• What is your life motto?   

»Fall seven times, stand up eight.«

Now here are my 11 facts: 

• I hate drama queens
• That's possibly why most of my close friends are male
• Confusing philosophical movies are my favorite because they make me think
• I do believe in extraterrestrial life ( aliens ) 
• I am also very eccentric ( with that constant urge to always be different from everybody else)
• I believe that I couldn't survive without music
• I wanted to be a volcanologist when I was 9 so I spent my days reading books about volcanos
• ... then I wanted to be an astrophysicist so I also read a lot of book about astrophysics
• I do currently speak 6 languages ( not all of them fluently though)
• I can be very cheeky and sarcastic but I don't usually mean it
• I am easily fascinated by magic tricks (I haven't yet seen) and art  

And last but not least.. 

The 11 bloggers I'm nominating are: 

• Linnie from http://linxnee.blogspot.com/ 
• Lauren from http://laurlauu.blogspot.co.uk/
• Amy from http://littlemoondragon.blogspot.ca/
• Laura from http://la-ailurophile.blogspot.com/
• Elizabeth from http://aroseisinbloom.blogspot.com/
• Mia from http://theurbanobsessions.blogspot.com/
• Christy from http://a-cupofrain.blogspot.com/
• Meg from http://www.alittletwistof.co.uk/
• Lotte from http://lottebeautybox.blogspot.com/
• Natasha from http://eyebrowsinc.blogspot.com/
• Sylvia from http://shewillbee.blogspot.com/

My 11 questions for you are: 

• How did you get to start blogging?
• If you could live in a book, TV show or movie - which would it be?
• What was the best compliment you ever received?
• What cheers you up?
• Who is your hero?
• What are you afraid of?
• What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
• Is the glass half full or half empty? 
• Would you prefer to be smart of happy and why?
• What has been your best moment so far? 
• Why are you so amazing?! :3

I hope you enjoyed reading this post & if you would like to take part in the Liebster Award as well but I couldn't tag you because I was limited to 11 people only,  please just feel tagged through this :) 

xx ♡ Micky

The Duster Coat

Coat : Zara | Dress : Zara | Sandals : Lamoda | Bag : Michael Kors | Watch : Michael Kors

Noticing in shock that I haven't really published any outfit post in ages here's finally, after half a century, my next #ootd post. I decided to go for an edgy, urban style with this look keeping the color range minimal and light so it suits the season. 
I wore this outfit in Munich, Germany, for only a day and in combination with the hair some people even came up to me asking me to take photos – I mean, how crazy is that?? Stuff that used to happen only in Japan suddenly also happened in Germany!
So I decided to feel incredibly honored and started loving this outfit even more than I did anyways. I also know now that I'm seriously addicted to Zara since it isn't an actual shopping day for me without paying a visit to their stores and taking home at least one of their items. 
The quality and price range is just perfect for my budget and never left me unsatisfied and in addition to that they're always selling the latest fashion. 

 I'm SOOO in love with this duster coat, it is certainly one of my favorite items this summer/fall as it goes really well with so many different outfit coordinates.<3

What is your summer/fall wardrobe essential?


 xx ♡ Micky